Freak files.

I've met a lot of freaks in my time. Hell I'm probably one of the biggest freaks around.

But I'm not talking of the shy, kooky kind of freak. I'm talking about the random, perverted, scary freaks. The ones that no one will miss. Well maybe a small minority would.

Lately it seems I am a magnet for the scary freaks. Okay, maybe not lately. There's a strong possibility it's more like all the time. Let's not start getting too picky now.

There was the guy who said he loved me. That's nice until I tell you I've never met him. I also only spoke to him for a few days before he professed his love. Yeah right, he loves me and doesn't even know me. Insert eye rolling movements here.

Another freak was a girl I met in the public hospital. Yes, alarm bells should have started ringing then. In my defence, I wasn't entirely sane at that point. Thus the reason I was in hospital.
Anyway, she seemed nice. She said she liked me, you know in the romantic way. I was flattered! It wasn't long before I started feeling scared around her. I couldn't even tell you what it was, but something just wasn't right.
I had to make a decision. I broke up with her. She called me a fat, unemployed loser. Among other things. I was crushed.

Another freak I went to high school with. He said he'd always loved me. He told that same line to all my friends. On Facebook. In private emails.

There have been so many people in my life who thought they would share themselves with me. I'm all for sharing, after all it is a sign of caring. I'm not so keen on people sharing their nasty fetishes with me. Or their desire to fuck the fat chick because she's easy. (Yes, I'm the "fat chick".)

What I'm getting at is that I know I'm a freak, I'm strange and I keep people at arms length. But I'm not perverted. Hell, if anything I'm a prude. Yep, that's right, prude. Prude, prude, prude.
Hey, you try finding someone you want close to you when everyone only wants sex or something freaky from you.

Whatever the reasons I've been scarred for life by all these manipulative, cruel individuals. I'll be hurt and scarred by more to come. It's just the way my life is.